Well... I guess this is my 'New Year New Me' post then!
Its a fresh start for me. Wednesday morning and I came right back to the office to finish off where I started. The end of last year was with a bang. Hello... I launched my OWN line. And as much as you just see 3 pair of lashes and a 12 brush set, this was the biggest thing for me. I know what I am talking about from where I came and started. I feel I have come a long way.
So, I am 28 years old. I became a woman a few years ago of course. But is it strange to say its just THIS year where I have felt grown? I mean, I feel mature now... 2015 was the year of so many responsibilities and organising them and I did not realise I had so much! When I was a little girl and I used to day dream, my mum would say to me, what is wrong with you, do you have children or a husband, you do not pay the bills.. snap out of it! And the reality is, it is my life right now, I am a wife, mother and an entrepreneur, running several business, with bills to pay.
Whilst responsibilities and being an adult can become extremely overbearing and stressful, we have to face them. Hence the reason why last weekend away was so important for me to acknowledge that. So now I am back in my real world. Living my dream as an Online Content Creator, Makeup Artist a Cosmetics brand owner. A dream I never even aspired to have but I guess this is where my path lead to and I love it!
I have not filmed since My Depression Story on my YouTube channel. That was uploaded a few days before the New Year. Whilst away over the weekend, having my spa treatment I deserved at The Hotel, I could not help but drift into thoughts on how I would tackle my life when I returned to London. Any time I feel I am transitioning into a new level in my life, I feel the need to break. So right now, I am just pausing, because I feel I have to come back with a higher level and excellence. A few subscribers to my YouTube Channel have asked me when is the next upload, knowing I post twice a week and haven't since late December... my answer at the moment is when I am ready! YouTube can take so much of your life, I enjoy it so much, but sometimes, I feel it is so important to take a breather and work on the next best thing. Personally, I feel my content needs an upgrade, and in order for me to do that correctly, I am not posting a video until my implementing stage is complete. So there will be changes... changes in my content. Whilst I grow, I expand, my mind also grows and I would like to share that with you... my video 'I love Older Men' is somewhat an example of where we might be going on the channel, with of course the uplifting videos, beauty fashion and typical lifestyle content. My branding is changing. I would be hosting a new blog end of February, my lifestyle has also upgraded.. I am enjoying more of the finer things in life and as I grow as a woman, I want to share that with you. I have quite a few life changing sponsored posts and brand collaborations approaching. I think right now, I am going through a huge shift.
Now for me, the hugest shift and change I need to make is who I let around me. There is no room for draining out the goodness I worked up in my life. Bad conversations, stand offish people, opportunists, burners, users and fake promises is not welcome in my life. I am keen on people who have a commitment to be great and stay committed. That has a lot to do with friendships as well. Everyone has something great to offer- and I am open to support and work with anyone with great potential, however its probably just now I can truly understand- business and friendship does not work. Last year, I engaged in many conversations, spent some time with a few people, got to know and see different characteristics, and I have found in all of this... how much I am so keen on walking with the same people who share my vision in life. I need grown, mature women who I can have grown talks with. I want to talk about making money, success, building futures, sex, men all that a grown woman can handle without feeling nervous.
I am excited to share with you more of these changes, I feel a video coming on explaining a few of these life changes.
My trip away has given me a deep insight to the direction I want to move my entire life. Which includes my business, my blog and YouTube channel, my personal goals, home and lifestyle.
Thank God for loyal friends! Whilst I constantly moan about the burners out there, I honestly have to appreciate and be content with my tiny circle because they give me LIFE! My main change is my drive about everything you see online. In about a month or so, my entire blog is changing... I know you would love it. I want to keep this blog modern and relevant. This blog is going to be about me. My life. Things I love, the things I hate. Its a documentation of my travels, my home, food, fashion and beauty, business and a little personal of course.